Blog Bandwagon

After a recent series of breakdowns over various life circumstances such as, but not limited to, school, money, time, my social life and the value of my education I have decided to jump on the bandwagon of blogging. Normally I would laugh at the idea of me having a blog but I've decided, why not? A public diary might be therapeutic and if enough people like me maybe it'll be an ego boost.
However, I am digressing. Since I've enrolled in college I have been questioning the choice. I have spent countless hours weighing the  pros and cons of staying in school vs. dropping out. I've thought of interning and working instead of school or just transferring somewhere else and continuing on with my education as originally planned. Sadly though, those are not easy choices.
I usually end up in one of three places when I try to narrow my education/life options out. 1. On the corner of my bed blubbering like a baby and making ridiculous posts on Facebook that I later delete after I realize that I sound like an indecisive cry-baby. 2. Balled up in the backseat of my car in the parking lot, trying not to let anyone see me cry while I think about how bad I am at life or 3. Crying in the shower so my sinuses don't swell up later.
The fact of the matter is that this decision would be one that will affect the rest of my life. I cannot just make it on the fly and I have to know exactly what I'm going to do and how once I make it. Trying to narrow down my decisions I have asked friends for advice, called my mom and screamed about my problems hoping she will offer some motherly pearls of wisdom that only moms can know, and even taking to the internet to research what happens to dropouts and college graduates. All of these have given me no answers.
So what am I to do? Well that leads me, in a round-about odd way, to this blog. I am going to ponder my options for a while longer, explore some possible options and post daily (or less if I'm uneventful) about my journey to find some sort of cosmic answer to the problem of how to be the woman I want to be without completely losing my mind in a series of mental breakdowns related to college.